I have a scan on Saturday. I haven't had one in over a year (since I was pregnant). I've been trying hard to not think about it at all, but I can't help but be nervous about it. The horrible thoughts creep into my mind from time to time... "what if..."
I really don't want to think about it but my mind goes there and I really don't want it to. I can't imagine having to go through everything again, and now with my beautiful baby girl... I can't imagine not being here for her if God forbid something were found and I didn't make it. Ugh I know I shouldn't think that way!
I'm just trying to look at it as just another thing I have to do that day. I'm going to have to build a bigger freezer stash of breast milk because I won't be able to nurse for 24 hours after. I'm also not supposed to be around G for 8 hours after, so it's sort of going to be a forced "me" day. My mom is going to take me shopping so we're going to hit up the outlets. She wants to get me some outfits, but all I can think about is "Yes! There's a Baby Gap and Carters!" I'm going to have a hard time not seeing my girl for 8 whole hours, let alone not shopping for her! I really have no interest in myself anymore. I guess should work on that because I don't want to let myself go. It's way too early for that. ;-)